My Week, My World

This week grabbed my attention and emotions. I could not help but think about the movie “the gods must be crazy” not sure why, but I just had the feeling that I was on a journey to make wrong right, while not sure of why, how and what it is I had to do.

So Monday started like any other Monday, trying to shake myself out of the weekend mode into the show-up-and- get- paid mode, so cant remember much of anything except my supervisor was off sick for three days, so added responsibility which equates to emotional stress. Not sure when she will be returning to work and the current swine flu epidemic is not helping either. She sounded like a subdued alien when I spoke with her on the phone.

On Tuesday I had a busy day at work and on my way home to lunch, had to call my sister to ask about something, when she began to talk in whispers. I was hungry, so the last thing I wanted to hear was her whispers. Turns out that she had not gone to work , but was at the hospital with my other sister to visit my younger brother who had been brutally attacked, beaten and chopped by members of his community!!! Thankfully he did not require surgery, but hey just the thought of knowing he could have died, sent shivers through my body and fear/anxiety replaced my hunger.

Wednesday I truly earned every cent of my salary that I will receive this month end. I went to work early and was still there hours after my shift was supposed to end. It was chaotic to say the least. My brother is doing better and then I heard that I had 3 other cousins who were in the hospital, and an uncle who was recently sent home. I was tired , so had to reschedule my end of semester final exam. I just wanted to sleep, turn off my phones, my computer and sleep. I just wanted to get away from all the sensory inputs, and go in my world where everything is perfect, no assaults, no exams, no work, no bills. I wanted to find that place and stay there.

Thursday is connected to Friday, so there’s reason for celebration, except that I will be on call for the next 72 hours! My body ached all day, I felt like a grandma and probably looked like one as well. I just finished my final exams for the semester and I’m thinking of my reward, exclusive of a passing grade. On days like this I dream of long vacations, where I go sailing the high seas on exotic cruises for months at a time. I may not be able to afford it, but these delusions keep me sane in my world.

So tonight I heard that my brother was released and my uncle was re- admitted in the same hospital and on the same ward!!!! I was afraid to ask if it was the same bed. I don’t know what’s happening, but I cant embrace it, so I’m gonna sleep. Maybe when I wake up in the morning, it will be a dream. So until then, I’m gonna get horizontal and go in my own world.

P.S Friday : Woke up a little after midnight to extreme heat and humidity, my first reaction was the a/c is broken, but was faced with the harsh reality that I had inadvertently turned on the heat instead! What a way to start my weekend!